living in the judgments.

sometimes we let ourselves buried deeply by people's judgment about us. no, it's too often actually. somehow we can build our self defense of simultaneously attacks but on another level we just can hold it any longer. those judgments can lead you to the two different ways: fucked up, feel like a plastic bag, or be a grown-up with the new insight (or mostly like 'yeah i don't fucking care' person).

here I'm gonna talk about negative judgments. I should say that we normally consider there are two types of judgment: the real one or the unreal one. both of them can drown us to the deepest level of desperation sea, though. why the real judgment also can kick us to another fucked up corner? why is that?

some people (including me) sometimes aren't ready to face the truth that we have never seen before. the truth is, people see their selves as what they believe. this thought make us believe that we are already be the greatest so far, and we also believe that we're on the best way. but when some people suddenly say the things about us that we had not have realized before (and they are judgments in a bad term), there is when we slowly sinking to the bottom of the sea.

but that is the worst case, for some people with a better truth acceptance, they will take those bad points as the materials that can build them to be higher tower than before in the stunning way.

then, how about those unreal-bad judgments? will it drive us to the hell valley or will it make us be a stronger person?

the answer is still the same. if we are the weak and overthinking persons, sure we will be buried under those judgments, perhaps until we lost our breath. or maybe we are just too lazy to deny it all, and then we just go with the flow. the flow that brings us to another hell sea that has no ends. otherwise, if we are tougher persons that we will be careless about those unimportant things.

but wait, finally, the end is also about 'are those bad judgments real?' . then, who is the person that really knows whether those bad judgments right or wrong?

of course, it's us. actually we already know what the truth is but our ego deny it too much. so, we are pathetic persons who always live in the middle of judgments, aren't we?