i hate it. i hate it.

I hate to depend on someone, especially on you. I really hate to feel like there's a hole when you're not around. I hate to realize that I need you just too much. seems like every inch of my step, I should hold your hands just to ensure me that everything is gonna be okay. I used to be alone, did everything by my own, didn't need the other hands to get over it. but now.. I just can't stand alone. damn it. and I really hate if I should say this thing to you. I just wanna be like it was, when everything's okay, with you or without you around.


or maybe I still can handle it all by my own... and I just want you to stay by my side as long as you can :(